Saturday, January 1
Time in Los Angeles: 9:34 AM
i'm online ! but this computer doesn't allow me to get msn. gee, gotta wait for my notebook ! anyhows, i'm DYING. suffering from missingmonia. oh, by the way, THANK YOU dear eunice for blogging for me. -looks down` it was abit .. hurr. haha but okay, you were sweet enough to do so ! (:
okay, firstly, gotta thank everyone, especially mel, linwei, kermin, shuwei, yingyi, nicole, steph, shuqi, dinah, yuqin, olivia, weiling c, xian, shuhui, clarissa, audrey, jacklyn, terence for the presents and for coming down even at the wierdest hours and all the messages, smses, hugs etc .. you guys rock my life ! seriously do.
well, i just couldn't put away my phone in the plane. cos i knew it would be the last time i'd be receiving smses from all of you with my stupid DUALBAND phone. mum was totally urging me to put it away. plane was already taking off, running on the runway. only did so when i was really off singapore's ground, decided to turn it off and finally leave singapore and SO MANY SWEETHEARTS out there. sigh .. was tearing and eventually crying like mad on the plane. tried holding back but i just couldn't.
plane ride was terrible, so decided to sleep through the whole thing. sure did. at least it kept my mind off stuff and kept my tears flowing.
stopped over at tokyo. took another flight to detroit. everytime the plane took off, i'd feel a sudden weird feeling. i don't know. it just meant i'd be further away from everyone, and that sucks. totally.
slept through once again, only waking up for meals. was a twelve hour ride and northwest airline's service's terribly horrible. urgg.
transit at detroit. the airport's system and coordination's totally in a mess ! caused us to miss our flight and thus a three and a half hours wait for the next flight. but it was kinda fun though. made a new friend ! she's from mgs, but on her second year at presbyterian ladies' college in melbourne. going on to melbourne U, name's crystabelle (spell ?). really sweet girl and she happens to know quite a few people from sn too !
boarded the last flight to toronto. half an hour, was fast. arrived and the school's van came to pick us up. toronto's beautiful ! but the people here still can't beat those i've met and known in singapore. you know how important you all are to me ! :(
it's new year's eve. might head down to chinatown later. well, for now, it's time for lunch ! but first,
everdearest MELANIE CHEW YANG NAH:
you know, i was walking to my room then i saw this door with a 'MEL' on it. really gave me a sudden cheered-up feeling until i realised it can't be you, you're not only miles away, you're INFINITY MILES away from me. god, i miss you SOOO much ! really really do. wanted so much to sms you through my whole plane ride. for all the nineteen hours ! but i just had to switch my phone off. sigh .. and my phone became garbage right at my first stopover at japan. guess what, i haven't finished reading your letter. can't bear to read it. every word's so jsdghskfja ! everytime i want to read it. before i can even open it, i start tearing. you know i never knew i'd ever miss someone so much ! you suck ! totally do. why're you so freakin sweet ?! well, you know those sweet messages i used to send you. they mean A WHOLE LOT now. they used to be just ordinary forwarded messages that meant sth, but sounded really cliched and stuff. not now anymore, it's really true how much you've brought to me these four years ! the last forwarded msg i sent to a few of you before i left, that was exactly how i felt then. looking back on the tears' really funny, how retarded we were, all our quarrels and how sickening some teachers can get sometimes. remember how much conflict we had in sec one and two ? someone would end up alone and left out before we'd patch up in really stupid ways. those were the times. we were really naive and silly man. but looking back on the laughters totally kills ! really sucks to leave only memories to be stored forever. right from sec one, flora's check it out check it out, bubblegummers and the wanted tooth (HAHA), yu laoshi and our chang-er moon answer, our mango kicking present for him, the relief teacher and our picnic, me and nicole's shooting star and galaxy (you should know by now). in sec two, the fish bolus, ni ning, siumin teacher, the sound of GONGS (: , tarzan and JANE, justeatit, our favourite western uncle, our letter competition file, stealing stuff from the music room, screaming our lungs out during national day songs, piercing our ears together during sec three and so many so many more ! they're all so unforgettable. was really sad when we couldn't be in the same class during sec three. so i tried my best to maintain the bond we had, you're welcome for the fruit tips and sweets, i thank you for the roller coasters, you're welcome for me pulling your hair to wake your sleepy head up, welcome and thank you too for being my sunshine whenever i felt like dying, you've always been there to remove the grey clouds away from my sky and i love you thoroughly for that ! sigh .. you know i too, have a billion things to say but words can never show. remember the picture i made for you ? the one with me and you in a star, pink background, with the pic we took in sec two, during our camera and photo craze ? and the that's what friends are for lyrics at the side ? i hope you still have it ! look at that and know that i'll be back and we'll be just as close just as crazy as we were in that photo okay ? wth. i cannot stop tearing. :( you so rock my life man ! thanks for calculating my L1R5 and marks a trillion times for me and reassuring me that i'll make it through when i felt like i totally screwed my math papers, thanks for mugging and motivating me to work hard, thanks for your retardedness that made me just as retarded, thanks for going for grad !!! (even though i broke my promise of sitting with you, i hope you're not angry, but i was really really delighted when you decided to go !). remember how we spent the last few hours before the shops closed to rush for all your grad stuff ! and amazingly, you turned out GORGEOUS ! thanks for your ss tips and notes, thanks for your chinese zao ju and worksheets, thanks for SO MANY THINGS and most importantly, thanks for being that SUPERSTAR in my life. i just can't thank you enough. anyway, i'm very sorry that i didn't tell you anything bout my canada stuff till you asked. you know everytime i brought it up, you'd just sit aside, so i thought you weren't very happy with me talking about it that's why i didn't wna tell you anything. but you were the first person i told bout my plan to study abroad, you're the first person i asked if it was possible to go together. once my mom talked to me bout it, i took out my phone and messaged you ! but whatever it is, i'm still really SORRY to make you feel like you didn't know anything bout me leaving k ! anyhows, school's starting for you ! really excited for you ! you're going to everyone's dream school man ! that's like so cool ! (: do cheer up ! i'm sorry if you don't wna hear this, but it's true ! you're gna make so many new friends ! it's scary cos you may forget me ! i don't know. but for me, i'm STUCK. surrounded by so many unknown people from around the world ! though i've clara and i've made TWO pathetic friends ! (one's from dunman high and the other's ri) it's still gna be so different ! :\ i hope i'll survive this eight months, or hopefully, six months. yadah, i'll mug super hard ! i'll be back before you even know it k ! don't be sad no more ! it's 2005 ! we're gna be seventeen soon ! and together ! you know even if i tried to forget you, i won't be able to ! cos you've left so many unremovable footsteps and prints all over my heart and so many memories all over my mind ! you'll always have a friend in me i swear ! though i'm really halfway round the world, that won't stop me from loving you ! you're one of a kind ! you're my 29th of october twin, my pok koon, tuti, dracu, bubblegummer, justeatit-er, mugger, EVERYTHING. a part of me will always be with you ! i LOVE you !! -hugs and never lets go` i'll write and email you EXTREMELY soon ! once i get my notebook. oh, and there's no justea here :( hahah but i'll be fine ! missing you heaps and plentiful ! :( have fun when school starts k ! i'll be back really soon ! ..
QIN
miss you dearest meimei ! how was counting down ? heard you dumped the two boys and papa at home ! haha but whatever it is, hope you had fun yeah ? oh, gotta let you know that i can't view your guestbook with the school comp so i'll have to wait for my notebook k ! alrights, i gotta go for my meal now ! tell papa and the two boys i miss and love them ! love you lots darling ! -HUGS TIGHT`
and to the rest, thank you SHUWEI and KERMIN for the emails. i teared like mad man. haven't finished reading them, can't bear to too ! don't wna cause any more tears to fall. think everyone here thinks i'm mad, keep tearing. hahah but i'll reply once i get the chance to come online or once i get my notebook k ! i've too much to say ! can't finish in too short a time ! love you both like NUTS !
and XIAN ! thanks for the testimonial ! i'm online ! but i'll reply you as soon as possible too ! tell the SEXCAWs i miss them ! :(
NICOLE i'm so sorry i didn't have a chance to go collect my stuff ! i'll get them from you when i get back k ! will email you soon ! LOVE`
alrights, take care everyone and have fun in school ! LOVE LOTS !
Monday, December 27
Time in Los Angeles: 9:02 AM
i'm leaving on a jet plane, dunno when i'll be back again.
-sigh. i'm the most pathetic girl. i'm gonna miss everyone. including my lovers, my friends, my dog, my family. pity me people. you people dun have to miss me, i wont blame you for not missing me. but there's one thing you people must do when i leave, and that's to miss me badly.
take care my friends. i'll rmb you for life.
